he asked me if i thought i wanted us to be together because i idealized our relationship.

i think about this often, because missing someone doesn't mean you should be with him.

i have experienced distance in the past. this is the kind of distance and i feel nothing for. the kind of distance that in fact creates emptiness. the kind of distance that makes me realize that the substance of a relationship was insubstantial.

but in him, i see the extraordinary, whether there is distance or lack of distance, the fact is that ordinary becomes the extraordinary, and isn't that what idealism is about, and does it in fact become fact instead of the ideal?