notes:

- i was talking about having been sad for the past few days, and she said that every month if she hasn't been both happy and sad, it is an incomplete month. because if you're not sad, it means you're not stretching yourself, if you don't fall, you're just not trying hard enough. sadness isn't negative.
- creating
- giving yourself away
- this is about my insecurity, it's not real, it's not based on anything real