i've been reassessing the way i talk. even my writing is indirect and passive and not wholly truthful. i avoid eye contact when i don't know you. i avoid names when i speak or write. i'm terrified of being straightforward. i keep saying it was about how i was raised. what the fuck do i do about this?

"And the day came when the risk it took to remain tight inside the bud was more painful than the risk it took to bloom." Anais Nin